Introduction to Meditation - Vello Väärtnõu

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Autor	Vello Väärtnõu
Kirjutatud	2006

See on Vello Väärtnõu tekst meditatsioonist, mille ta kirjutas 2006. aastal ühe internetilehe (foorumi) jaoks. Mõned osad, mis olid suunatud otse selle foorumi lugejatele, ja mõned isiklikud osad on siit välja jäetud.

Sissejuhatus meditatsiooni.

Olen tegelenud meditatsiooniga üle 30 aasta, mis tähendab et olen sel alal, kui kasutada euroopa terminit - PROFESSIONAAL.

Punkt üks. Kõige pealt tuleb alati alustada sellest, millised vahendid ja tööriistad sul on, kui hakkad tegutsema, sama skeem kehtib iga muu tegevuse kohta. Kas ei tundu see minu küsimus loogiline?

Mis tähendab et meie tööriistadeks antud valdkonnas -- MEDITATSIOON on meie viis isiklikku meelt. Kas on vaja loetleda, millised need on?

Arvan ei,,,,, ja kui mõnel puudub selle alane elementaarne info, uurigu psühholoogide käest netis järgi.

Kuna nägemismeel on kõige enam meie aju toitev meeltest, kuni 78%... siis loogiline et sellele langeb kõige suurem osakaal ka meditatsiooni puhul,,,, sellele vastavalt tuleneb ka mõiste KUJUSTAMINE.

Enne kui üldse hakata tegelema meditatsiooniga, tuleb alustada - ENDA ANALÜÜSIST. Mis tähendab et püütakse endale selgeks teha, kuis sa funktsioneerid kui agregaat, masin, kompleksne süsteem. Ja seda aitab sinu puhul teha vaid isiklik mõistus - sinu ainukene ja kõige hinnalisem aparaat.

Kusjuures seesama aparaat, kui ta on häälestamata, annab ta meile terve p---e täie valearusaamu ja illusoorsust meie enda ja meid ümbritseva maailma kohta. Kes selles süüdi, et me ei oska enda valduses olevat ülivõimsat aparaati kasutada,, eks ikka ja alati oleme selles süüdi,,,, ISE.

Kuna idas loetakse ka mõistust meelte hulka, sest ta võtab kõigi meie meelte poolt saadud info kokku, siis asub juhm ugrilane uurima enda mõistust esmalt, kasutades selleks seda sama isiklikku mõistust.

Mis tähendab et selgitatakse välja töö-vahendid ja nende sobivus antud teemal, ja nendeks on enda isiklikud meeled.

Nagu ütlesin,,,, esmane on kujustamine, teksti tootmisega meditatsiooni ajal pole midagi peale hakata, see sama kui püüaksime programmeerimiskeele vahendusel lugeda arvutisse sisestatud tekste, loobudes arvutist. See tühi töö ja vaeva nägemine.

See samaväärne, kui püüaksime päraku kaudu puhastada hambaid. Pole mõtet, ei tasu.

Mis tähendab siin kasutatud mõiste,,, trummiga reisimine nagu šamaanid kasutavad, siis see, mis siin toodud, see happu jutt, miks?...... sest nood mehed kasutavad sama tehnikat kui budalased, seega alusplatvorm sama: 5 meelt, pluss mõistus kui kuues ja kokkuvõttev komponent.

Mind on alati eesti rahva juhmus selle teema käsitlusel ajanud oksele. Nii et jutt meditatsioonist algab alati ja alati meeltest, sest meie elu ja eksistentsi üle valitsevad meeled. Meie aju toidavad meeled. Me eksisteerime sellisel moel, nagu ennast kujutame, alati vaid tänu meeltele, ja selle meelte poolt toodetud toodangu sorteerib ja lahterdab kastikesse meie AJU ehk MÕISTUS. Seega võite kõiges, kui kusagil puusse panete (kujund), süüdistada vaid ennast, ka selles, et usute seda jama, mis siin ise kirjutate, võite taas süüdistada ikka ja jälle ISE-ENNAST.

Teie mõistus petab teid kõiges, selleks et aru saada pettusest, on teil see isiklik arvuti enda jaoks juppideks, detailideks vaja lahti võtta, et mõista, millest ta koosneb.

Vaadake ringi ja uurige, millega tegeleb väike laps, kui ta saab uue mänguasja,,, ta püüab seda juppideks laiali lõhkuda.

Tal on juba kaasasündinud programm kaasas,, UURI, VAATA, KISU, MAITSE, NUUSUTA, KOMBI.

Budalase esimene reegel kõlab alati lihtsalt,, UURI, VAATA, jne.

Kuna nägemismeele osatähtsusest meie elus ja ümbritsevast info saamisel oli eelnevalt juttu, siis loogiline et ka sellest algab meditatsioon.

Kujustamises eristatakse 3 tasandit ehk kategooriat. Esimene on see, kus katsetaja, õpilane, kursant või loll dharma-tudeng, kes püüab targaks saada ja järgida budismuse suurt juhti ja füürerit BUDDA-t, alustab enda visuaalse meele treenimist.

Kuna silmanärv tarbib kõige enam ajumahtu (näited: meile kõigile meeldib telekat vahtida enam kui lugeda raamatut, sest see aktsioon ehk tegevus pakub meile enam,,, me näeme,,, VÄRVE, VORME), seega meile meeldib alati enam pilt kui lihtne labane tekst.

Raamatut lugedes peab aju ehk mõistus teksti tõlkima meie meeltele arusaadavasse keelde, mis on ka lisakoormuseks aju puhul, selle pärast ka eelistame telekat raamatule, ja alati.

Kui teha film meditatsioonist, on see meile huvitavam vaadata kui kuulata juhmi laama igavat loengut,,,, MIKS? Sest vanasõna ütleb,,, parem üks kord näha kui 1000 korda kuulata.

Kujutan ette, et mõni siin võib hakata vastu vaidlema, mõttetu tegevus, mul on alati õigus, alati, mis puutub meditatsiooni, kuna olen selles valdkonnas proff.

Esimene tasand meditatsioonis on see, kus inimene hakkab endas dresseerima omadust, et ise enda ajule toota pilti. Me hakkame enda ajus ehitama pisikest telekat, mida vaadata. Sest muidu oleme sunnitud vahtima seda, mis meid ümbritseb, ja vaevalt see meie igav ümbrus meile midagi pakub meie meeltele.

Teine tasand meditatsioonis ehk kujustamises on, kus oleme võimelised seda pilti tootma ja ka nägema enda silmade abil,

Mis tähendab, et sa toodad endast praktiliselt skisofreeniku, sest näed ise enda poolt toodetud, loodud hallutsinatsioone. Vahe tavalise skisoga selles, et kui see langeb enda foobiate ja paranoiade poolt toodetud lõksu, siis selle protsessi puhul seda ei saa olema, kuna sa ise häälestad enda teleka ja toodad just sellist programmi, millist ise soovid.

Küsimusi on? Arvan ei, minu jutt konkreetne, loogiline ja täiuslik nagu budism enda olemuselt.

Ja kolmas tasand meditatsioonis on see, kus seesama praktiseerija on võimeline tootma pilti ehk nägemust, mida ka teised on võimelised nägema.

Mis tähendab, et ta toodab,, sellist asja nagu KOLLEKTIIVNE HALLUTSINATSIOON. See juba käib siddhide ehk võimete hulka.

Nii kombitakse läbi kõik enda meeled esmalt ja alles siis minnakse edasi. Keegi siin kirjutas sellisest asjast nagu SÜVA-MEDITATSIOON, juhmus, nagu mererannas madal ja sügav vesi. Kas tiibetlane teab, mis on madal või sügav vesi? Nonsenss, nad ei oska ujuda ja kardavad vett paaniliselt. Kas siis seda peaks mõistma sellisel põhimõttel, et see nagu org, mis sügav? Ei. Ah, ma ei ole iial elus sallinud juhmust, nii et loobuge enda illusoorsusest, mida ise toodate.

Arvan, olen teile siin kiirelt ja korrektselt teinud sissejuhatuse meditatsiooni.

Emotsioonidest ja kujustamisest

Esiteks, kui kirja saad ja üle libistad pilgu, saad ju aru, kas kiri on häälestatud positiivselt, negatiivselt, või siis ei paku ta midagi emotsioonile, kuna kirjatükis sisalduv info ei seostu sinus olevate emotsioonide ehk seisunditega, mis tähendab, et sul pole suhet sellesse.

Kui kiri aga otseselt suunatud sinu isiku ja iseloomu omaduste kirjeldamisele ja väärtustamisele, siis alles läheb lahti...

Tavaliselt vaatan sõnumi üle ja isiklik arvuti kolbas teeb kokkuvõtte sõnumisse kodeeritud emotsioonist. Kogu info, mis meieni jõuab, seda saab vaadata kahelt poolt.

a),,,, isiklikust aspektist,, mida teeb 99,99999999999999999999% inimestest

b),, saab vaadata ja analüüsida kirjas olevat emotsiooni saatja aspektist lähtuvalt, mis oleks kah tark tegu.

Inimene alateadlikult teebki seda vahel, kui püstitab küsimuse,,,, "kuidas ta küll nii ütleb,,, suhtub jne".

Kuid tavainimene püstitab vaid küsimuse, ta ei oska samm-sammult läheneda ja suhtuda erapooletult, sest ta võtab seda südamesse. Seega emotsiooni abil on ju võimalik,, inimesega manipuleerida ja seda on tehtud kogu inimkonna ajaloo vältel. Sama tehakse ka praegu. See ilmneb nii riiklikul tasandil kui üksikisiku puhul. Perekonnas ja abielusuhetes esinevast manipulatsioonist peaks sul mingi ettekujutus olema, sama kehtib ka riiklike institutsioonide puhul.

Vanasti nõukogude võim, nüüd uus Eesti, kuid samad punased sitapead võimul. Arnoldile ei julge keegi enam kinga anda.

USA külvab hirmu enda kodanikesse, toppides neisse terrorismi, näiteid ei viitsi tuua palju, mõtle ise.

Kuna oleme emotsiooni maiad, siis oleme ta raiska külge seotud,,,,, järelikult oleme me lõa otsas,,,,, seega ohvrid,,, nende jaoks,,, kes oskavad ja teavad, kuidas seda nähtamatut jõudu ühiskonnas kasutada.

Guru ütles mulle,,,,, "ÄRA KUNAGI LASE ENDA MÕTETE, EMOTSIOONIDE, SEISUNDITE ÜLE VALITSEDA MITTE KELLELGI".

Mulle tundub, et ta ütles äärmiselt õieti. Sain sellest aru juba 30 aastat tagasi.

Ka mõistsin ma loogikat Guru käitumises, ütlemistes, miimikas, žestides, kõik see on kommunikatsioon, sest ta ise õpetas mind selles osas. Tema sõnad olid,,,,, "kõik, mis meist välja tuleb, on vastavuses meie karmaga, mis tähendab, et ka sinu hingeõhk, mis kopsust välja kihutab, omab sinu isiklikku pitserit ehk tunnusmärki." Miks?,,, mõtle.

Sama kehtis ka selle suhtes, mis meile sisse läheb, pidi ka kõik äärmiselt individuaalne ja isiklik olema, sest siin toimivad juba meeled, ka meie vabadus mõelda, tegutseda, mõista, eristada sõltub,,,,, MILLEST,,, ikka sellest isiklikust filtrist, mida ise peame töötlema ja täiustama. Kogu see Gurude ja JUMALUSTE jõuk on sinu kui isiku jaoks illusoorne, mis tähendab, et ta ei eksisteeri meie meelte jaoks, kuid ta eksisteerib teadvuse suhtes, ja see on esimene trepiaste, kuhu astutakse, ilma et inimene tunneks hirmu, rõõmu, vaimustust, kurbust,,, sest ta teab, mis need asjad endast kujutavad, seega on see,,,,,,,,,,, budistlik luuser,,,, sellest vaba,,, mis tähendab, et meelte poolt toodetu on olemas ja las ta raisk olla,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, kuid mõistus ongi see vahepealne raudteejaam, kus ülejäänud sõiduriistadest loobutakse ja istutakse,,, kiirrongile ehk ekspressile nimega,,,,,,,,,, KUJUSTAMINE. Ja seda, et see emotsioon ei segaks, tuleb endas välja töötada automatism, ehk emotsionaalsusest loobumise programm.

Ega need emotsioonid kuhugi kao, nad jäävad alati olema, kuid see nagu Himaalaja: ta on küll olemas, kuid kui Stockholmist vaadata, siis ei paista kuidagi. Seega kaugel, ja kui mõned aastad mitte näha mägesid, läheb isegi meelest, et nad olemas on.

Õige olend, ehk tark olend, mis tähendab vast seda, et juba,,, vabanev olend, mis eeldab seda, et tegu budismi praktiseeriva olendiga, kes on enda sisemises psüühilises arengus jõudnud nii kaugele, et oskab eristada,,,,, (MIDA?) enda,,,,,, MEELE ehk MEELTE poolt toodetud kraami, ja sobrades selles pasas enda,,, meelega,,, mille nimeks on,,, MÕISTUS, valib selle, mida vajalikuks ja oluliseks peab. Kasutu viskab minema. Nüüd küsiks su käest küsimuse,,,, Kas sa tihti nutad enda prügikonteineri kõrval, kui käid sodi välja viskamas?

Jah, selle materiaalse rämpsu pärast on meil,,, POHHUI,,, tulgu või veeuputus, kuid, mis puutub emotsiooni, siis...

Lugu looks, kuid inimesed alati tahavad ja nõuavad emotsiooni,,,, (emotsioon ja seisund käivad koos, kuid nende puhul saab vahet teha ja eristada, mis tähendab, et seda pusa annab juppideks arutada),,,,,, inimesed ju orjavad emotsiooni. Vaata telekast reklaami, filmi, ka nood toodavad meie jaoks midagi, see kõik annab meile hetkelise ajutise heaolu tunde.

Siia tuleks veel lisada seda,,, et targad budalased näevad enda ja teiste emotsioone pidevalt. Mis ei tähenda, et nad sellest puudutatud saaksid, nad näevad ja liiguvad neis emotsionaalsetes seisundites nagu linnas, tänavatel, kus majad, seinad, tänavad, kõnniteed koosnevad just sellest materjalist. Vaata, kui lihtne endale ette kujutada seda niiviisi. Aga tavainimene, kui hakkab liikuma, siis 100 juhust 100 paneb vastu seina,,, ehk nagu mina ütlen,,, PUUSSE.

Miks? Kuna ta ei erista, ei näe, ei märka. Küsimus,, MIKS? Kuna ta pole õppinud nii vaatama. Küsi tite käest, kes räägib juba ja mõtleb, näiteks 6-aastaselt, kuidas näevad välja head ja kuidas näevad välja halvad tänavad. Ta seletab sulle kohe, sest ta lähtub mitte liikleja seisukohast vaid...... tite seisukohast, kes vajab elus midagi muud kui head autoteed või valgustatud öised tänavad. Tema eelistaks suhkrulinde, kommidest tänavaid jne. Olen sel teemal sansaristidega vestelnud ja neile meeldib seda teha, sest nad saavad kohe pihta kujustamisele ja vabadusele, mis selleks vaja on.

Ühesõnaga see kuradi budalasest Guru peaks seega oskama näha läbi manipulatsioone ja oskama ka ise nagu kasutada seda. Mis puutub selle sama manipulatsiooni kasutamisse, siis on asjalood sitasti. Miks? Öeldakse, et kui hakkad millegi muu poole püüdlema, mis mitte teps pole sinu arengu ja nii-öelda sansaarast välja ronimisega seotud, siis paned raskelt puusse, sest seesamune meel pidavat soovi külge kinni jääma nagu... kärbes liimipaberisse ehk paberile. See õnnetus pidavat massiliselt tabama noid poisse, kes siddhisid taga ajavad. Siia võiks tuua paralleeli metalliärikatest, kes paljud ajasid rikkust taga, ja osa neist, õnnelikumad, pappi ei teeninud, kuid jäid ellu, teine osa neist aga löödi maha, seega vähem õnnelikud.

Mis puutub praktikat ja enesega tööd, siis siin on asjad veel hullemad, kuna siin on alati vaid 2 võimalust. Ja nimelt kas,, PUUSSE või,, NIRVAANASSE.

Kuna buddasid nagu viimase 500 aasta jooksul või enamgi pole nagu eriti esinenud, siis võid arvestada välja matemaatilise keskmise, palju on,, PUUSSE pannuid, muideks mina ka nende hulgas,, teatan ma tähtsalt. Probleem on selles, et me peame olema võimelised pidevalt tajuma teiste seisundeid ja häälestatust, ilma neist osa saamata. Mis tähendab, me peame olema võimelised inimesi läbi nägema nende olemuses pidevalt.. mis ei tähenda, et sa neile annaksid hinnangut nende tegevuse kohta. Oled vait, või kui pead rääkima, siis,,,, valeta. Miks valeta,, põhjus lihtne: sul pole endal mingit suhet ega seisukohta, kuid ütle inimesele, et mul,,,, pohhui,,, ta solvub hinge põhjani. Kuid näita talle emotsiooni, ja ta saab, vaata et, psüühilise orgasmi. Olen seda elus korduvalt teinud. Lõpuks tüütab ära, siis konutad tuimalt omaette, või uurid uusi nüansikesi selles materjalis.

Mõistan, see suur kogus materjali läbi lasta ajudest, kuid mida enam tapad informatsiooniga aju hallollust, seda enam ta on võimeline sinu jaoks töötama.

Ja kui nii kirju uurida, võib lõpuks ka hakata mõistma, mis su emotsionaalse reaktsiooni viga on ja miks ta nii osav on sinu vastu töötama. Enamuses on see üks suur,, illusioon, mida toidame ja toodame, sest,,,,,, sest,,,,, sest...

Kui sa emotsioone kandvaid kirju oled võimeline lugema juba nii-öelda nagu informatiivset teksti, lisaks vaatad seda emotsionaalset laadungit mõlema poole pealt, siis hakkab igav ja imestad, kuidas sa pole varem selle peale tulnud. Kusjuures see tagab ka teise aspekti, et oled võimeline ise emotsiooni tootma ise enda jaoks, kui selleks vajadus. [...] Kuid iga asja puhul pead küsima endalt,, kuivõrd seda sulle vaja on ja mis sellest kasu. Kui tahad kui Dinah olla, siis järelikult vajame kuulsust. Sa vastaksid kohe, et,,,, ei, tahan lihtsalt laulda nii nagu tema. Õige, kuid Guru küsiks kohe,,, MILLEKS. Õige vastus sel juhul oleks,,, KAIF muusikast. Mis sa arvad, mida Guru selle peale ütleb?,,,,,,,,,,,,, Mulle see budismus tundub õudsalt lahe ja lihtne olevat, nii hästi nad õpetavad marssima teel, mille nimetus,,, ANALÜÜS.

Maha emotsioneerimine,, Elagu kujustamine.

Analüüsin kõike, ka naabrite suhet maksuametisse, näiteks.

Ole alati valmis tünni saama, mida endale paned ise. Sama kehtib teemade suhtes, kõige suhtes.

Mäletan, esimest kuud netis olles sain kirja, kus mind õnnitleti võidu puhul ja paluti minu kõiki andmeid, selleks et mulle pappi üle anda.

Mis sa arvad, mis siis toimus? Esimene moment saabus heaolu ja rõõm, et õnn on lõpuks taolase üles leidnud raha näol, kuid siis imbus ajju Guru mõte sellest, et see, mis sansaara pakub, ei pruugi alati olla see, kuidas seda demonstreeritakse, pakutakse.

Võtsin Guru käest saadud instrumendid pihku ja asusin uurima, ja mis selgus? Tuleb välja, et tühipalja lubaduse eest tahavad need uued heategijad minu käest saada teada kõik, mis võimaldaks mulle sellise tünni panna materiaalselt, et lõpp.

Nagu nukraks tegi, et näe, õnn pani kõrvalt mööda, kuid see vaid,,, ILLUSIOON, mis minus oli, millega see meeskond arvestas. Mis sa arvad, kui ma oleksin omal ajal olnud mitte budalane ja seda värki teinud. Kujutan ette, ma oleksin neile KGB-istidele kohe vahele jäänud. Kuid piisas sellest, kui lasin ajudest läbi, mis Guru oli mulle seletanud, tundsin enesekindlust ja üleolekut nende suhtes, sest olin neist eest mitme sammu võrra. Ma ei alahinnanud neid. Vastupidi, jätsin neile ruumi enda teoreetilistes aruteludes ja analüüsides enam võimalusi tünni panemiseks kui reaalis. See tagas ka edu. Ja ma ei usaldanud kedagi peale Gurude, kes tol hetkel olid ikka seal samas Burjaatimaal.

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Author	Vello Väärtnõu
Written	2006

This is Vello Väärtnõu's text about meditation, which he wrote in 2006 for an online page (a forum). Some parts that were addressed directly to the readers of that forum, and some personal parts, have been left out here.

Introduction to Meditation.

I have been engaged in meditation for over 30 years, which means that in this field I am, to use the European term, a PROFESSIONAL.

Point one. First of all one must always begin with what means and tools you have when you start to act; the same scheme holds for any other activity. Does this question of mine not seem logical?

Which means that our tools in the given field, MEDITATION, are our five personal senses. Is there any need to list what they are?

I think not ... and if someone lacks the elementary info on this, let him ask the psychologists on the Net.

Since of the senses it is the sense of sight that feeds our brain the most, up to 78%... it is logical that the greatest share falls to it in meditation too ... and from this follows the concept of VISUALISATION.

Before one starts to engage in meditation at all, one must begin with ANALYSIS OF ONESELF. Which means that one tries to make clear to oneself how you function as an aggregate, a machine, a complex system. And in your case only your personal mind can help you do this: your one and only and most precious apparatus.

And this same apparatus, when it is not tuned, gives us a whole a--eful of misunderstandings and illusoriness about ourselves and the world around us. Who is to blame that we do not know how to use the supremely powerful apparatus in our possession ... of course, always, it is we OURSELVES who are to blame.

Since in the East the mind too is counted among the senses, because it sums up the info received by all our senses, the dim Ugrian sets about studying his mind first, using for this that same personal mind.

Which means that the working tools and their suitability for the given subject are found out, and these are one's own personal senses.

As I said ... the primary thing is visualisation; there is nothing to be done with producing text during meditation; it is the same as if we tried to read texts entered into a computer by means of a programming language while doing without the computer. That is empty work and wasted effort.

It is the same as if we tried to clean our teeth through the anus. There is no point, it does not pay.

As for the concept used here ... travelling with the drum, as the shamans use it, what is given here is sour talk. Why? ...... because those men use the same technique as the Buddhists, so the base platform is the same: 5 senses, plus the mind as the sixth and summing-up component.

The dimness of the Estonian people in treating this subject has always made me want to vomit. So talk about meditation always, always begins with the senses, because the senses rule over our life and existence. The senses feed our brain. We exist in the way we imagine ourselves always only thanks to the senses, and this output produced by the senses is sorted and filed into little boxes by our BRAIN, or MIND. So in everything, when you go to the wall somewhere (a figure of speech), you can blame only yourselves; also for believing the rubbish that you yourselves write here, you can again blame, again and again, YOURSELVES.

Your mind deceives you in everything; in order to understand the deception you need to take this personal computer of yours apart into bits and details, to understand what it consists of.

Look around and study what a small child does when he gets a new toy ... he tries to smash it into bits.

He already carries an innate programme with him: EXAMINE, LOOK, PULL, TASTE, SNIFF, FEEL.

The first rule of a Buddhist always sounds simply: EXAMINE, LOOK, and so on.

Since the importance of the sense of sight in our life and in getting info from our surroundings was spoken of before, it is logical that meditation too begins with it.

In visualisation 3 levels or categories are distinguished. The first is the one where the experimenter, pupil, cadet or foolish Dharma student, who tries to become wise and to follow the great leader and Führer of Buddhism, the BUDDHA, begins to train his visual sense.

Since the optic nerve consumes the most brain capacity (examples: we all like gawping at the telly more than reading a book, because this action, or activity, offers us more ... we see ... COLOURS, FORMS), so we always like a picture more than a simple vulgar text.

When reading a book the brain, or mind, has to translate the text into a language understandable to our senses, which is also an extra load on the brain; that is why we prefer the telly to the book, and always.

If a film is made about meditation, it is more interesting for us to watch than to listen to a dim lama's boring lecture ... WHY? Because the proverb says ... better to see once than to hear 1000 times.

I imagine that someone here may start to argue: a pointless activity. I am always right, always, as far as meditation is concerned, since I am a pro in this field.

The first level in meditation is the one where a person begins to drill into himself the ability to produce a picture for his own brain. We begin to build in our brain a little telly to watch. Because otherwise we are forced to gawp at what surrounds us, and that boring surrounding of ours hardly offers anything to our senses.

The second level in meditation, or visualisation, is where we are able to produce this picture and also to see it with our own eyes,

Which means that you practically make a schizophrenic of yourself, because you see hallucinations produced and created by yourself. The difference from an ordinary schizo is that while he falls into the trap produced by his own phobias and paranoias, in this process that will not happen, since you yourself tune your telly and produce just the programme you yourself wish.

Any questions? I think not; my talk is concrete, logical and perfect, like Buddhism in its essence.

And the third level in meditation is the one where this same practitioner is able to produce a picture, or a vision, that others too are able to see.

Which means that he produces such a thing as a COLLECTIVE HALLUCINATION. This already belongs among the siddhis, or powers.

So one first feels one's way through all one's senses, and only then does one go further. Someone here wrote about such a thing as DEEP MEDITATION: dimness, like shallow and deep water at the seashore. Does a Tibetan know what shallow or deep water is? Nonsense, they cannot swim and are panic-stricken of water. Should it then be understood on the principle that it is like a valley that is deep? No. Ah, never in my life have I tolerated dimness, so give up the illusoriness that you yourselves produce.

I think I have given you here, quickly and correctly, an introduction to meditation.

On Emotions and Visualisation

Firstly, when you receive a letter and run your eye over it, you understand, don't you, whether the letter is tuned positively or negatively, or else it offers nothing to emotion, because the info contained in the piece of writing does not connect with the emotions, or states, that are in you, which means that you have no relation to it.

But if the letter is aimed directly at describing and valuing your person and the qualities of your character, then it really kicks off...

Usually I look over a message, and the personal computer in my skull makes a summary of the emotion encoded in the message. All the info that reaches us can be looked at from two sides.

a) ... from the personal aspect, which is what 99.99999999999999999999% of people do

b) ... one can look at and analyse the emotion in the letter starting from the sender's aspect, which would also be a wise thing to do.

A person does this sometimes subconsciously, when he raises the question ... "how can he say such a thing ... take such an attitude", and so on.

But the ordinary person only raises the question; he cannot approach it step by step and take an impartial attitude, because he takes it to heart. So with the help of emotion it is possible, isn't it, to manipulate a person, and this has been done throughout the whole history of humankind. The same is done now too. It shows both on the level of the state and in the case of the individual. You should have some idea of the manipulation that occurs in the family and in marriage relations; the same holds for state institutions.

In the old days the Soviet power, now the new Estonia, but the same red shitheads in power. Nobody dares any more to give Arnold the boot.

The USA sows fear in its citizens, stuffing terrorism into them; I can't be bothered to give many examples, think for yourself.

Since we have a sweet tooth for emotion, we are tied to the damned thing ... consequently we are on a leash ... and so victims ... for those ... who are able and know how to use this invisible force in society.

My Guru said to me: "NEVER LET ANYONE AT ALL RULE OVER YOUR THOUGHTS, EMOTIONS, STATES."

It seems to me that he spoke extremely rightly. I understood this already 30 years ago.

I also understood the logic in the Guru's behaviour, sayings, facial expressions, gestures; all this is communication, because he himself taught me in this matter. His words were: "everything that comes out of us is in accordance with our karma, which means that even your breath, which rushes out of your lungs, bears your personal seal, or mark." Why? ... think.

The same held for what goes into us too: everything was supposed to be extremely individual and personal, because here the senses are already at work; our freedom to think, act, understand and distinguish also depends ... ON WHAT ... on that personal filter which we ourselves have to process and perfect. This whole gang of Gurus and DEITIES is illusory for you as a person, which means that it does not exist for our senses, but it exists in relation to consciousness, and this is the first step of the stair, onto which one steps without the person feeling fear, joy, enthusiasm, sadness ... because he knows what these things are; so this ... Buddhist loser ... is free of it ... which means that what is produced by the senses exists, and let the damned thing be ... but the mind is that intermediate railway station where the other vehicles are given up and one boards ... the fast train, or express, called ... VISUALISATION. And so that this emotion does not disturb, one must work out in oneself an automatism, or a programme of giving up emotionality.

These emotions do not disappear anywhere, they always remain, but it is like the Himalaya: it does exist, but looked at from Stockholm it cannot be seen at all. So it is far away, and if one does not see the mountains for some years, one even forgets that they exist.

A right being, or a wise being, which perhaps means an already ... liberating being, which presupposes that we are dealing with a being practising Buddhism, who in his inner psychic development has got so far that he can distinguish ... (WHAT?) ... the stuff produced by his SENSE, or SENSES, and, rummaging in this crap with his ... sense ... whose name is ... MIND, chooses what he considers necessary and important. What is useless he throws away. Now I would ask you a question: do you often cry beside your rubbish bin when you go to throw out the junk?

Yes, about that material rubbish we couldn't care less ... come the flood, but as for emotion, then...

So be it, but people always want and demand emotion ... (emotion and state go together, but one can tell them apart and distinguish them, which means that this puzzle can be taken apart into bits) ... people, after all, are slaves of emotion. Look at the adverts and films on the telly; they too produce something for us; it all gives us a momentary, temporary feeling of well-being.

To this should be added ... that wise Buddhists see their own and others' emotions constantly. Which does not mean that they would be touched by them; they see them and move in these emotional states as in a town, in streets where the houses, walls, streets and pavements consist of just this material. Look how simple it is to imagine it in this way. But when the ordinary person starts to move, then in 100 cases out of 100 he runs into the wall ... or, as I say ... INTO THE TREE.

Why? Because he does not distinguish, does not see, does not notice. The question ... WHY? Because he has not learned to look like that. Ask a little kid who already speaks and thinks, for example at 6 years old, what good streets look like and what bad streets look like. He will explain it to you at once, because he starts not from the point of view of a road user but ...... from the point of view of a kid, who needs something else in life than good motorways or lit streets at night. He would prefer sugar birds, streets made of sweets and so on. I have talked with samsarists on this subject, and they like doing it, because they at once get the hang of visualisation and of the freedom that is needed for it.

In a word, this damned Buddhist Guru should therefore be able to see through manipulations, and also, as it were, to use it himself. As for the use of this same manipulation, things are in a shitty state. Why? It is said that if you begin to strive for something else that is not in the least connected with your development and, so to say, with climbing out of samsara, then you go badly into the tree, because this same mind is said to stick to the wish like ... a fly to flypaper. This misfortune is said to strike in masses those lads who chase after siddhis. Here one could draw a parallel with the metal-business men, many of whom chased after wealth; some of them, the luckier ones, did not earn any dough but survived, while the other part of them were killed, so they were less lucky.

As for practice and work on oneself, here things are even worse, since here there are always only 2 possibilities. Namely either ... INTO THE TREE or ... INTO NIRVANA.

Since buddhas have not, as it were, appeared much in the last 500 years or more, you can work out the mathematical average of how many have gone ... INTO THE TREE, by the way myself among them, I announce importantly. The problem is that we must be able to perceive constantly the states and the tuning of others without partaking of them. Which means that we must be able to see through people in their essence constantly .. which does not mean that you should give them an assessment of their activity. You keep quiet, or if you have to speak, then ... lie. Why lie ... the reason is simple: you yourself have no relation or position, but tell a person that I ... couldn't care less ... and he is offended to the bottom of his soul. But show him emotion, and he gets, would you believe, a psychic orgasm. I have done this many times in my life. In the end it gets boring, then you mope dully on your own, or study new little nuances in this material.

I understand, it is a big amount of material to put through your brains, but the more you kill the grey matter of the brain with information, the more it is able to work for you.

And if one studies letters in this way, one may at last begin to understand what is wrong with your emotional reaction and why it is so skilful at working against you. For the most part it is one big ... illusion that we feed and produce, because ... because ... because...

When you are able to read letters that carry emotions already, so to say, as informative text, and in addition look at this emotional charge from both sides, then you get bored and wonder how you did not think of it before. And this also ensures the other aspect: that you are able to produce emotion yourself, for yourself, when there is a need for it. [...] But with everything you must ask yourself ... how much you need it and what use it is. If you want to be like Dinah, then consequently we need fame. You would answer at once ... no, I just want to sing like her. Right, but the Guru would ask at once ... WHAT FOR. The right answer in that case would be ... the KICK of the music. What do you think the Guru says to that? ... To me this Buddhism seems awfully cool and simple; they teach so well to march on the road whose name is ... ANALYSIS.

Down with emotioning ... Long live visualisation.

I analyse everything, even the neighbours' relations with the tax office, for example.

Always be ready to be put in the barrel that you put yourself into. The same holds for subjects, for everything.

I remember that in my first month on the Net I got a letter in which I was congratulated on a win and asked for all my details in order to hand the dough over to me.

What do you think happened then? In the first moment came well-being and joy that luck had at last found the taolane in the form of money, but then the Guru's thought seeped into my brain: that what samsara offers need not always be what it is shown and offered as.

I took into my hands the instruments I had received from the Guru and began to investigate, and what came out? It turns out that for a mere empty promise these new benefactors wanted to find out from me everything that would allow them to put me in such a barrel materially that it would be the end.

It made me a bit sad that, look, luck had run off past me, but that was only the ... ILLUSION that was in me, which this team was counting on. What do you think, if in my time I had not been a Buddhist and had done that stuff? I imagine I would have been caught by those KGB men at once. But it was enough when I put through my brains what the Guru had explained to me; I felt self-confidence and superiority towards them, because I was several steps ahead of them. I did not underestimate them. On the contrary, in my theoretical reasoning and analyses I left them more chances of putting me in the barrel than in reality. This also ensured success. And I trusted no one but the Gurus, who at that time were still there in the land of the Buryats.

See Also

• To Understand Tantrism and Get the Hang of It - Vello Väärtnõu's essay on tantrism, the senses and visualisation, 2010
• The Five Dhyani Buddhas and the Five Senses - Vello Väärtnõu
• Vello Väärtnõu

Source

Vello Väärtnõu's own writing "Sissejuhatus meditatsiooni" (2006)